Dream not 2009

We are sitting in Gombong Senior High School's Gardens. I glance at someone besides me, Arga. He is reading The Phisic's Preparation. I look around the garden. All students have gone home.
' Sasi, could you tell me about our childhood?' he asks me without looking at my eyes.
' Is it funny?' I reply.
' It's not funny, but I don’t think if you will tell it next year…'
' Shut up!'
He just smiles ,' Don’t be afraid, I'll be here for you… '
He puts his hand around my shoulders.
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' Hi, Sasi…'
I was going to enter my home when someone called my name. He is Arga, one of my friends in Albert Einstein Elementary School, who lives next door. I smiled and run away toward him. He is my lovely brother…He often makes little surprise tough it's just a chocolate candy.
'Let's go!'
'Where will we go?'
He showed me his sweetest smile and held my hand. We were running for somewhere and I didn't know what it was. Was it something special?
'Look at the tree!'
He said surprisedly.
' Yeah… that is our orchid!'
We had a Red Orchid. We must water it every morning so that we had a timetable. If one of us didn't do the duty, he would be punished!
' Mission Complete!' he shouted.
It was a beautiful moment in a beautiful day....
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' it is for you!'
Arga gave me a cone of ice cream. It was strawberry and I like it so much and he likes chocolate. We were playing in the garden after the lesson. I was sitting on the swung when I saw a little girl crying.
' Who is she?'
' Who?'
' A girl who is crying..Is he our new neighbour?'
' I don't know..' he replied fastly.
I rose from the seat and run away nearer her.
' Hi…what are you doing here?' I looked at her eyes.
' The door is locked..'
' Where is your mum?'
She humbled, ' She is being hospitalized..'
' Are you home alone?'.
Her nooding made the sympathy. That was a pity!! A minute later she looked at someone besides me.
' Oh…he is Arga! Don't be afraid, well What is your name?'
' Debby..' and she was crying again.
' Don't cry! Uhm…I have a cone. It is for you..' I handed my cone and her little hand slighted it.
' Don't do that!!' Arga shouted at me.
' What is going on with you?!' I screamed.
He put another cone from his pocket and gave it.
' Thank you…' she said slowly.
' Would you be our friend?' I asked her. She smiled and took my little finger.
' Let join us, Ga..'
Arga glanced at the other side but I drew his hand.
' We are friends…'
We got a new friend!! Yipiie…She was Debby.
' I must go home, it is the time for checking up..' Arga said and left us. I didn'd know why Arga often checked up in the hospital once a month.
' I have ever seen him..'
' Where?'
' At The Hospital…'
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' Mommy…' Iwas looking for my mum after the school.
' Mommy!!!' I screamed.
' Say Assalamu'alaikum, honey…' I heard a voice from the pantry.
' Salamlekom…' I said lazily. My mum smiled and put my bag.
' Assalamu'alaikum…' I repeated my words and decide to change my uniform. I stopped my steps when I remembered something.
' Mommy, do you know that Arga didn't go to school today?'
She humbled, ' He is sick…'
That was a pity because the class was silent without his laughing!
' Sick?'
' But I promise you, he will be Ok, tomorrow. ..'
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Arga didn’t go to school! It was the third day. I was bored. There was nothing funny without him. Hhhh…I looked at my teacher in grade 3, Miss Hanna. She was teaching us the reading, but I disliked it. I could have do it since 5 years!
' Sasi, Could you help me to read this book?' she asked me and gave me the book. I looked at its cover, " Cinderella". I smiled and handed it. I could tell the story without the book. I could do it by heart! It was easy.
I read it for five minutes. The others students replaced me to read it. I sit in my chair and glance my eye to the yard. I wanted to go home earlier this afternoon. I was going to make a thousands of Egrets. I had read a book which stated that the thousands of Egrets can make a miracle! I was waiting for the ringing bell..
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' What are you doing girls?'
I kept silent and just showed my mum the egrets.
' What is this?'
' Where will we go to the hospital?' I didn't answered my mum question.
' This evening, why?'
' I must finish the egrets! Ok mum, help me to make the egrets…'
' Dear..please hear me..' she held my shoulder and her deep eyes looked at me. I looked at my mum face. Did I make a mistake?
' God will give him the healthy without the egrets…'
' But the book wrote it..'
' Ok, I will help you, but stop it. Believe me, Arga will get well soon..'
I kept silent and saw the egrets were entered to the box.
' It's for Arga happiness…'
I stood and kissed my lovely mum tough I didn't understand her words,..Was the comic lie?
' I love you, dear…'
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9 years later… In a lovely afternoon he has just ordered me to tell the story.. We are in Gombong Senior High School Grade 3. Next year we will be the students of a university..
' I have told it! Where is my wage?'
I said and put his book. It need not a long time when he shows me a bar of Toblerone. He smiles.
' Let's go home…'
He holds my hand and we are walking at the Sempor Lama Street when we hear the bell from Gombong Chruch. It is 04.00 p.m.
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' Everything will be Ok, baby..' I embrance Debby's shoulder and give me the permission license from our teacher. Her mother is being hospitalized, and his father telephoned her to go to the hospital just now. I know that she is going to cry. The sadness makes me as the smooth girl.
'Are you Ok, Debby?' Arga asks her.
' Well, I must go now…'
She leaves us and run away to her driver who is standing in front of the school. I decide to go to the library after her car went out and so does Arga. He is going to read about the Medical Faculty of Gadjah Mada University Books which has been sent by the university yesterday.
' Arga…'
' Hm…'
I look at his handsome face, do you know that he becomes a handsome, cool, and kind boy? He is an interesting boy so that there are many girl students who wants to be his girlfriend. Arga is not a basketball player tough he has the good skill, he is not a boy band personel, but he is the cleverest students at my school.
' Do you kno that Debby's mother suffers the Leukemia?'
' I see,,,' he answers shortly.
' She is often hospitalized, isn't it?'
He humbles.
' I can't image if I were in her position.. I will be sad, I am afraid of the loss…'
Suddenly, hearing my word he closes his book and looks at my deep eyes.
' Arga…'
' Ya…'
' I will be sad if we can't enter the same university…' I speak slowly.
' ha ha ha ha….' He laughs after heard my words.
' Shut up, boy!!' I screamed. Ooops….
' Don't worry, Sasi, we are friends forever…tough you can't see me again, tough it's so far, tough we are not in the same time, you can feel my existence, because of our friendship. I will be here for you…'
I am so surprised with his words! I don' think that he will say that! He has never said it before. His mind is unpredictable.
' Wooooiii…what do you say?!'
' I don't say anything, I just make you believe in me…'
' Ya…But forget it! Let's go to the class. It is English time..'
He leaves me alone, but a minute later I enter the class and find him in front of the class with his sweetest smile…
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I am sitting alone in my chair. Debby is absent today. I look at my book and try to stop the black imagine about how difficult to enter the Gadjah Mada University! My friends are busy with their own activity so no one can solve my problem.
' Don't disturb me..' I shouted when Arga sits besides me.
' I need not to disturb you, a pity girl!! I just wanna say…good Night..'
' You're crazy!' I throw away my book at him and I hear his laughing. He is funny! He can make me angry and crazy at the same time. A minute later he comes and looks at my face, ' What do you think about the medical faculty?'
' It's not too bad… But I am pessimistic that I can be in MF…'
' Come on, Sasi…Don't be afraid…'
There is the silence between us. Everyone is sinking at their mind.
' I am afraid I can do it…'
' Sssst…you can do it and must do it!'
' I am a careless girl…'
' Sasi, looks at me..'
' I can't….'
But Arga cuts my words fastly, ' wait me after the school…'
He leaves me.
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I am standing up in front of the Biology Laboratory. Arga is making conversation with Mr. A Hong, our Biolgy teacher, who order that we must catch the the sixth hundreds of Drosophilla melanobaster as our duty. Do you believe that his face is like Jimmy Lin? You must not believe it he he.. I see my digital watch. I have been eiting him for an hour!
' It takes a long time, Arga…' I screamed when I see Arga is closing the Laboratory.
' He he…sorry…'
' What Have you said?'
' Sickle cell anemia… Let's go…'
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It is the hill which I had ever found the red orchid. The wind bliws my hair smoothly. I look at the tree. I don't know how old it is. We are sitting under the tree and glance at the blue sky. It is silence which can fly my imagine and put it to the cloudy. I don't know why Arga invite me here because of his silence.
' I am waiting for your words, Sasi… Tell about something, please…'
' What do you want to hear?'
' Up to you…'
' OK. What do you think about the dream?'
There is notihing words! He locks his sentence!
' I give you a question, but you can't…'
' I think I have a lot of dreams. Alloh has given me many chances for making it becomes true.. He gives me families, friends, loves, and you…So that I must survive, though I have no time more than it…'
' What do you say? Is there anything wrong?'
He looks at the clouds and I find the tears at the corner of his eyes.I know he is going to cry but he attempts to not do it besides me.
' I have Sickle cell anemia…'
It is impossible! Sickle cell anemia suffers the Negroid, and he is not a Negroid! But I just heard something that makes me surprised! Sickle cell anemia, it is the condition when the erytrosite is like the sickle. One of 400 people in Africa has it…
' You lie!'
' It is the truth..'
' Why don't you tell me before?!'
' I never wanna see you cry!'
Do you know? He always comes whenever I want, everywhere and every time. He always makes me smile. We have been being the friend for seventeen years! It is not a short time, and I fail to be his friend. I don't know about his illness, I just know his smile…
' I think I am not your friend…'
He gives me the symbol of 'silent'.
' What can I do for you? Make you smile or make you cry?!' I scream.
' Sitting besides me and don't go anywhere…I can't find the moment next year,,,'
' I see because we will be in university, won't we?'
' Give me the spirit..'
I don' answer his words, it has lost and I never find it.
' Does Debby know about it?'
He nodded, ' I often meet him at the hospital, but I can't tell anything. You are the one…'
' I believe in you, you are not a weak boy…' I smile at him and a minute later I put my hand in his shoulder.
' I never wanna say good bye, coz I never wanna see you cry…'
I hear a little voice from his lips, his bottom heart…
' We can do it!!'
' I see but I cant do it alone…'
' God always has abeutiful planning…'
The tears, the laugh, the happiness, and the sadness, come without any permission. I don't know when they come but I realize when they go…and our friendship is more than everything, but Can I hold you forever? I will bring you to the sky, although flying without wings, and I put it over the rainbow…
There is a pain
It is like the rain
Everything is beautiful
There is a pond of love
It is just for the one
I know I am like a bubble
And I just a girl
The wind blows me
Fallind down on your deep heart
I can't reach you
You are not mine
But I will be with you
The love….the one…
The one I love…

' Hei…don't be sad..'
' I am happy, because of the chance, it is not the last chance is it?'
He stars at me and shows his sweetest smile. Oh, sky…are you looking us? We are happay and don't give the bad one, please…The cloudy, are you realizing us? We can't be alone because we have a lot of dreams…Our dream note have never been realizing…
' I can't cry and never..' I say after gazing at his face.
' Let's go home…'
He holds my hand I we decide to go home. I don't know what I will say him tomorrow. Should I give the sweetest smile or …
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' Arga suffers the sicke cell anemia, mum..' I share to my mother. She stops sewing and looks at me.
' Have you known it?'
' Why didn't you tell me before?'
' Arga doesn't give me the permission, he never wanna see you cry..'
' But he has done it!!'
' Do you believe in him? He believes that the death is not decided by the vonis but Allah has decided it..'
I keep silent and try to understand her words.
' He is the strongest boy whom I know..'
' You just believe in him and give the spirit. He never cries…never,,,He is a happiest boy. He is an optimistic, Sasi…'
I know about it, but I am afraid of the loneliness… Can I stand without him? I am remembering Arga when someone knocks the door.
' Sasi, Debby is waiting for you…'
I raise from the seat and meet Debby. What is going on with Debby? He is crying.
' Debby?'
' I am sorry for disturbing you, but I need you..'.
She looks so pale. She is sitting in my entrance with her tears. Her eyes gazes to the orange sky…Wrll it is getting maghrib.
' My mum…' she starts to tell her problem, ' she is in coma…'
I embrace her,' She will be Ok…don't cry, dear…'
I am embracing her and do't realize that someone is standing behind us. He is Arga.
' What are you doing here?' I say surprisely.
' I am sorry, but I just bring it back..'
He shows me a pink book. Oh my God..it is my diary.
' Freak!' I seize the book.
' Ha ha Sorry, but you have left it in your locker. It would be back if someone read it. You are so funny..'
' Nothing is funny, it is crazy!'
He laughs as if there was no problem in his mind.
' Uhmmm…have you read it?' I ask him carefully.
' Hm…'
Oh my God…there is something in my diary, a secret!. He doesn't answer my question.
' OK. I must go home, it's getting maghrib…'
He leaves me.
' Wait me!!' I screamed and pull his hand,' Do you know something secret?'
He smiles and a moment later looks at my deep eyes.
' I know everything without the book..'
I don't understand his words but I know he can read my mind and my feeling. It takes five minutes when I remember something! Yeah….Debby, she is alone.
' I am sorry, Arga is crazy! He has read my diary!'
' You are a lucky girl…'
What does it means? I am trying to find the answer.
' He is a kind boy, I am happy that I ever see him. He akways gives me the spirit tough it is just a message. I need him, I can't live without him…'
A little feeling comes into my heart. It is like the pain… a piece of the broken heart. I look at her eyes. There are loneliness, sadness, and tiredness. I glance at the sky after it and see a figure. There is someone who needs Arga more than me. She is my closed friend. Being his friend for seventeen years is enough. I can't hold him forever…Don't wish more..
' Sasi, would you give Arga for me?' Debby asks. Hhhh…I dislike the situation. It is so bad. It is a difficult choice.
' Debby, Arga….Arga…is lovable…' I want to be cheery.
'Thank you, Sas…'
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I am going to Debby's house when I see someone who is sitting at the roof of my home. Arga? What is he doing? It is evening, 08.00 p.m…
' What are you doing?'
' I am seeing the future,,,'
' O yea?'
' Come on, Sasi…'
I show him the symbol of OK. A minute later we are in the same line.
' Look at the stars…The stars are like our dream, aren't they?' he asks.
' Hmm… I like it…'
' Making it true is not as difficult as your opinion…I know that you are the real fighter, I know you as a strong girl..'
' Have you checked up?' my question is disconnected with his statement, but the words come suddenly. I know the sickle cell anemia-the disease who suffers Negroid , but I don't know why he suffers it-need to be transfused once a month.
' Don't say it, now…'
' You will be sick…'
' Will be sick or will be die?' he smiles after the words.
' Not only you, but also me…'
I am uncomfortable with his statement.
'OK. Would you accompany me tomorrow?'
' Where will we go?'
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' Hei…come on..' Arga couples my hand. We are at the hospital. Having walked in a minute we enter a room. I look at the door. It is said Arifin, dr.
' Hei, boy…'
He is a friendly doctor. The doctor embrace him. I think they have something special. I look around the room and don't realize that the doctor is giving his attention to me.
' Arga, is she your girlfriend?' he asks Arga after putting the stethoscope in his breast.
' I don't know, she has unknown status he he…' The doctor just smiles and get Arga's arm. He takes a blood bag and put on. I squint my eyes.
' Have you ever done it?' Arga asks me.
' Not yet…'
Dr. Arifin lets me wait for a moment and gives me a magazine.
' Sickle cell anemia…' I spell.
' Why?' he confirms my words.
' I know that it suffers the Negroid in caused by the autosom, but Arga is not a Negroid…'
He needs a minute to make a statement which can be understood easily.
' God always works in a mysterious way…'
I shut my lips up and read the magazine without any question. I glance at Arga at once and I know he is bored. It is hard…
' Hey…why are you looking at me?' he catchs my eyes.
' Oh…I just remember something…'
' To lay on it or let me go forever?'
' Yo're a Negroid, aren't you? Ha ha ha…'
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We are going to Gramedia by bus. It is a full Blue Bird. There are a lot of passengers. Most of them are the students of Senior High School. The bus non conditioner is so hot. I stand on it and try making my feet in equilibrium. I will fall down if I don't do it. The driver is little error. Arga is standing at the back of myself. I can feel his breath. It makes a strange sensation…The warmth…
' Do you like this situation?'
Ups…
' I realy hate it…'
' And I like it…'
' I am going to tell it to my mother, and she will punish you!'
' O yea? But your mother will be happy because I have save her daughter…'
' Shut up!!' I screamed.
At the book store…The time is going fastly. I try to stop the feels, Arga is just my friend and Debby needs him more than me! There is Debby who needs his spirit.
' Wake up, girl!!' Arga shocks my head.
' Let me see your book..'
He shows me the book and I read the title " How to be a happy boy?"
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There is the cloudy sky.It is going to rain. I run away into my house passing through the dizzle. I am going to close the windows when I see someone under the dizzle. I go to the ground and put the umbrella.
' Debby! What is going on with you?' I embrace her and let her to enter the house. She is crying when I take a towl and dry her body.
' What is going on?'
She doesn't answer it,' Would you mind if I call Arga?' I give him another person who can make it comfort. She still shuts up and I take the telephone. I must make him happy! I call Arga but " The number yo're calling…"
' Shit!! Wait me a minute…'
I wear my coat although it is a heavy rain. I run to Arga's house, run and run…
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' What happened?'
Hmm…I know that he is the only one who can make her give her words. I leave them and change my wet shirt. I need not to see them, it makes me sad…
' Sasi, let's have a cup of tea…' A voice calls me.
I open the door. In front of the door, my mum stands
' They're waiting for you…'
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' Why did she cry?'
' The doctor team will put the medical tools off this afternoon…'
Oh my God…
' She has been being in coma for two weeks..'
I shut and just star at the white board. I don't know what it is being looked. I can feel her sadness. She will lose her mum…
' If I am in coma, and it takes a long time, I let you to…'
' Stop!!' I cut his words fastly.
' Just kidding, girl…'

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